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...well after about a month with living with pete we realized it would be better just to be friends...Ryan still sent me text messages asking me if I was still with Pete and one night I finally responded NO and he was like do you want to see a movie with me and of course I said yes but then I realized that I have no where to go after tomorrow...Pete said that he is going on tour and his mom...doesn't want me in the house while they are on vacation...So I am basically kicked out for a while but they still love me and I am welcome back anytime.!! So me and Ryan went out on our date and he asked me if I would live with him...I said yes that would be great! That night I prayed and thanked the Lord letting me be here right now! I am with the one I love all this time and I didn't realize that until he held my hand it was like a shock of some sort...I knew he felt it too because he looked at our hands holding and then at me and smiled. He let me have his bed and he slept on the coach...but I said that I didn't mind sharing a bed...it was a big bed!! So he got excited and slept in the same bed as me....t

too be continued!!

...I had to leave even though pete didn't want me too but I had to go home to get my stuff because I was moving in with pete...so he came with me to help. When we got to my house Ryan was waiting on my steps with flowers...when he saw me he came up and hugged me...Ryan I have to tell you something. What he says in a sad voice...well the thing is that there is someone else....I am so so sorry!! we can still be friends...yeah that will be fine..i guess.

Pete comes up and watches ryan leave along with me...pete then looks at me and he knows I might cry...my eyes start turning green like they always do when I cry!! He hugged me and wouldn't let me go and he kept kissing my forehead trying to calm me down! It didn't help much but it was enough to go inside to face my parents...

They yelled at me because I never called them...but other than that they really liked pete which was good because that means they will let me hang with him everyday

The thing they didn't handle so well was me moving to his place...the only reason I am is because my dad beats my mom and me...and pete's mom fell in love with me...and not to mention patrick too...that was funny he kept interupting me and pete's conversation in order to find out more about me. Ha ha that was funny

Well after I packed up my stuff pete helped me carry the last box to the car then I went back to look at my room one last time...and pete followed me and grabbed my waist and then turned me around to kiss me and we fell on my bed....and started kissing but then my mom came upsatirs and said that we should leave she knew my dad would go off any minute so we rushed down stairs I told her goodbye, that I loved her, and I told her pray mom pray your hardest tonight!!...

To be Continued

...me and pete were awakened by patrick in the kitchen cooking well trying to cook pancakes and making pb&j my favorite and pete's...pete had a big smile on his face and so did I...I went up to pete's room to get my cell phone to see if I had any messages and I had 15 they were all text messages from RYAN...they were all like when can I see you again, I miss you, I need to see you, and stuff like that...pete came up stairs to get me...he was like are you ok you look like you were crying...*wipes tears* no I wasn't I am fine..are you sure I am positive...alright then he hugs me and kissess me...then I brake down into tears then he hugs me tighter and tells me to shh and it was so amazing...he kissess me on the forehead...then we talk about what happened. He knew I felt bad and didn't know what to do...so then after he helped me through it we went downstairs to eat breakfast... to be continued

sorry heather..but I am tired and I didn't feel like making it longer!!

well after we all went out to dinner...Heather and Brendon went back to his place for a little fun. Me and Ryan went for a walk after dinner and talked a little, we were telling each other about our interests and about oursleves...we found out that we had alot in common. But then I realized what time it was I was flipping out (in my head) that we had talked for over 2 hours..It was amazing...It was our first date if that is what you want to call it so he didn't asked me over to his place...he just drove me home. Did he kiss me you ask well that is for the next story..

sorry they are short but I don't have enough Ideas I need help so comment with ideas for me please!!

Today I finally got a buzznet site and started talking to this person named Heather she was very nice and it seems she is dating a guy named Brendon...she talked about him alot. Then like a day or two later she was telling me that he asked her to marry him so I was like thats great. I was feeling sad for a while because I didn't have a boyfriend so I asked Heather if Brendon had a friend that was single and she said yes actually his name is Ryan. I was becoming very confused...at first when she told me the name of her boyfriend it was spelled exactly the same as the Brendon from P!ATD and then she said he had a friend named Ryan so that led me on to ask what they did. Heather what does ryan and brendon do?? O they are in a band.. what band?? Panic! At The Disco...I fliped out majorly. So when can I meet this ryan Person and you...well you can come to their practice space. She gave me the address and I met her and Brendon and then Heather told Brendon about the plan to hook me and Ryan up...so after their practice Brendon and Heather introduced me and Ryan it was an amazing moment. He said hi then I said hi but it took me a while to get it out. Then after that Heather and Brendon suggested that all of us should go out to dinner and me and ryan said at the same time "lets go get chinese"

would you let me walk to the ocean with you? Would you let me swim with the sharks and Jellyfish with you?...

I may shead a tear or two...not because of the pain from the sting and the bite...thats all numb right now but I am shedding these tears because I have this moment with you that I can share and remeber always. I just wish I didn't have to leave the water so soon.

If only our time together wasn't figment of my imagination...